What a fool….

What a fool I have become. To trust in people, to believe what they say and only to find out that it was ALL lies!! I am so angry at myself. Why do I keep letting people in only for them to do it all over again?? Go figure.

I would NEVER use someone like that. (I renounce this vow in the name of Yeshua) I should have said that I will NEVER by the grace of God…..No matter what. The cost is too high but then again I guess if you are used to it, you don’t think about it do ya? I DO! I think about it all the time. Is there a day that goes by that I don’t think about all the lies that were told and the hurt that was caused by them? No, not one. But I’ll be damned if I am going to be just like them. I ain’t gonna sit here and lie and say that my flesh doesn’t want to do the same. Oh, I would love to hurt them as they have hurt me, but I can’t. My conscience wont let me and I think that may be the difference between me and them, I have the Lord, who is my guide and my conscience. He wouldn’t allow such things if He were truly in charge of your life!!  

Romans 12:19  Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.

I do not hold a grudge for that is not my place. The Lord is the only one to judge others. I will jsut continue to love and pray for those afflicted by hate and vengeance. Though it will take everything I have some days…I will continue to do what is right to the best of my ability, and some days that isn’t very good! LOL But Christians aren’t perfect, we are forgiven! Thank you Lord that your mercy’s are new every day!

Sarra

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